So last Thursday, after I had been cleared to go back to work, I had a massive panic attack that ended up with me being dragged to the doctor and I was given a week off.
It’s been a bit of a rollercoaster since then…my boss refuses to answer any emails or texts from me because she’s pissed at me. I almost had another panic attack yesterday and had to go to the fire station to get my vitals checked because I thought I was having a heart attack and I woke up this morning to my shoulders feeling like somebody sat on them all night.
I’m not any better, tbh. I’ve been to PT several times now and the last time I was there (two days ago) they stuck a bunch of acupuncture needles in my butt and hooked them up to electricity. But it didn’t help. I spent all of yesterday on the verge of a panic attack because I could barely move my right leg. And when I tried to do the exercises I’d been given as homework, it hurt so much that I had to quit.
The house is an absolute disaster and I feel like utter crap. I am SO not ready to go back to work on Friday and I have an MRI scheduled for Monday afternoon. Lord knows what THAT is going to tell them. Probably that they need to take my piriformis muscle out (that’s a thing, apparently).
I don’t know. I just want to not be in pain because this SUCKS. I’m TIRED of this shit, honestly.