It’s been bad the last couple weeks or so. Like…real bad. Like, I am so anxious every waking moment that I can barely function and even yoga and meditation aren’t helping much. The closer we get to the start of school (14 days and counting, y’all), the worse it seems to get. I’m starting to question whether or not I can do the job I was hired for, seeing as I have ZERO experience. I’m terrified that since the district released the numbers for how many kids are doing virtual learning vs on-campus (by school), that my son is going to DEFINITELY get COVID and then I’ll get it and I may not survive because of my autoimmune issues. My mystery ‘rash’ has showed up several times in the last two weeks and twice in the last three days alone. Granted, it goes away within 24 hours, but since I have NO idea what’s causing it, it’s stressing me the heck out.
I also have to go into work for t he first time today, since there are online training things I have to do I can’t do from home. The website is having issues with a couple of the modules I’m supposed to do (this is training everybody is supposed to do and I’m not t he only one having issues, apparently) and I’m terrified I’ll have a wreck or something on the way out there, since I’ve only driven out there ONCE by myself.
I’ll get through it, I’m sure, because I kind of don’t have a choice. But this is not going to be easy…or fun.