My son goes back to high school, in person, in 10 days. And the closer we get to that day, the more anxious I get. Because while our governor has mandated masks in public, I have ZERO faith that our school district will actually enforce that. I’m just glad he’s in high school now and not middle school. They closed the old middle school so they could turn it into an admin building (this is the third time in the last few years they’ve closed a school to make it an admin building before moving again instead of actually building a purpose built building for that reason) and I don’t know about the status of the second new building (which is on the other side of the district) but I know the one my son would’ve been sent to isn’t even finished. They’ve been working on it for a year and it’s not finished. It won’t BE finished either, by the time kids start in a little over a week. So kids are going to be walking in/around stuff still heavily under construction because…WHY THE HELL NOT?
Our district (at least as far as I can tell) has no real plan in place either for what might will happen when a crapton of staff and kids start coming down with COVID. And that scares me. But I feel like we don’t have a choice…either we keep him home (which we technically can’t do, since we already registered him for in person) and he doesn’t get the services he needs and is required OR we send him to school so that he can be exposed to COVID and possibly bring it home to me and my autoimmune disordered self who would probably get the worst possible case of it ever. Because of course I would. That’s how unlucky I usually am.
According to the district’s website, 75% of the student pop at his high school are returning for in person education this fall. And even with 25% of the students not returning, it’s still going to be an overcrowded mess and I am low key terrified. And getting more so every day.
It doesn’t help that Donald Trump is positioning himself to take over the country and set himself up as Lord King Emperor Supreme Ruler FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER with all his stupid shenanigans. That’s making me anxious too.
I’m trying to hang in there…I’m taking my meds, exercising, trying to meditate (even if most of the time I can’t settle down my brain), trying to just hang in there and wait this stuff out.
Because really, what else can I do, except wait? What can ANY of us do, except sit back, wait and hope that the worst doesn’t get any worse than it already is?
At least I have Netflix and Hulu to distract me.
Pass the tequila.
