I’m sitting here shivering like it’s freezing in here, even though I’m dressed appropriately (tee-shirt and fleece lined leggings) and the house is an appropriate temperature (about 75 degrees).
But I woke up from a nap I didn’t exactly want to take that was sort of forced on me because I couldn’t sleep last night (again). One minute I was watching a new episode of *Midnight Diner: Tokyo* on Netflix and the next thing I know, I’m asleep and I’m trying to wake up but I can’t because my body refuses to wake up. My legs and arms are doing a freaky ass spazzy dance and it’s freaking me the fuck out because I don’t know if it’s real or a dream. I’m trying desperately to wake up, but my body feels awkward and leaden, my legs twitching like they’re electrified.
When I do wake up, I realize my blood sugar is super low, but eating doesn’t seem to help. I shove chocolate cake in my face to try and raise it quickly, but it’s not helping. So I just sit here and shiver and feel shitty because I don’t know what else to do. My whole body feels like an ice block. I don’t (as far as I can tell) have a fever so I don’t think I’m sick.
I’m not sick..I don’t think. I’m..anxious, for sure. I didn’t take my meds today on top of waiting for the doctor’s office to get back to me as to WHY the hell they haven’t seen my prescription for the emergency Xanax we discussed at my last visit to the fucking pharmacy. I know they won’t get back till Monday at least, hopefully, but god..WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME?
I’m going to go hop back in bed under all the covers and try to get this shivering under control. Because this is NOT fun. At all.
And if Ihave the flu (because I haven’t gotten my flu shot yet because I’m lazy AF)then I am FUCKED.